Trying to find god (Redding)

Ever since I was a little kid I've always believed that there was a god but having bounced around from church to church and been exposed to so many variations of Christianity and other religions I honestly dont know what to believe I want to believe Godbis there but when I try and follow the Christian path something just doesn't feel right I try to read the Bible and something about it feels off wrong even i know everything i look up will monitored controled and censored so if anyone reading this knows of the real truth i would like know and keep in mind ive had.
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Encounters with what I believe to be demonic entitys in the past and I know in my heart if they are real if they exist then God must be real as well I want the honest painful scary truth help me find it